sighness

thoughts of nothingness cross through my mind. how does one think of nothingness? the feeling is hard to explain. I am coming up to my 23rd year on this planet and looking back on the nothingness that is my life i wonder how things would've been different... i was supposed to get married in april, glad i'm not. i have a beautiful little girl, glad i do. but really what's bothering me? i do not know. It seems hard to think what things might've been. most days thoughts of getting away from minnesota, but where? i'm glad i have some things planned this spring, travel get away hopefully to a place with little cell phone reception. ha! miss rae turns one in march, can't believe that this year has gone by so fast! my love isn't with me always, its been hard, trying to think of different things to keep my mind off that fact. he irritates me, but in the end i'm the one that will have to deal with it the rest of my life. happy happy joy joy.

the sun is long gone
quietly whispers goodnight
soon she will return