11:30 p.m.

so it's 11:30 at night, evalie is fast asleep, and here i am. watched a few episodes of sex and the city, one of my guilty pleasures, i love that show. i have decided that i need a vacation, not a weekend trip, a few days off from life in general. since our new vacay times don't start until tomorrow, i have some time to think about what i would like to do. my car has been making a weird noise lately, i am pretty sure she is just mad at me for being a few miles over an oil change. miss rae used her potty for the first time in front of me, which i am so proud of! even though now she is obsessed with taking off her pants and wiping her butt. hopefully she wont randomly do that. she only has one more day of day care this week, she gets to spend my last days working with her gramma angie. her father left me a message yesterday, but i have no way of reaching him so who knows what will happen next there. we found a mouse in our house. gross i know, thankfully lindsy caught it and took care of it. rodents creep me out. well it is now almost midnight, and i am ready to go to bed. short day of work tomorrow, and then to my favorite place. gotta take care of some things. yay. goodnighttttttttttt

n.a.p.

Evalie is on her third day of trying to avoid taking a nap. at this very moment she is sitting on her bed looking at a book, chatting to herself. i just wonder how long this rebellious streak will last. we all know that she is a bear if she doesn't sleep for at least an hour. *sigh* here's to a fun night of crankiness and possibly an early bed time. on a brighter note, i have had all day off and am really enjoying doing almost nothing. i know that there is a long list of things i am supposed to be getting accomplished, but they can wait a few hours. my goals for 2011 are still waiting for me. i have been working out with Lindsy Lou and hopefully will fit my plump self into a bridesmaid dress this coming September. until then the search for a new place to live is in the process, and wishing that a new job would be too, but until the day that this happens i will be staying here... yay. well its time to release the child and let her destroy and then pick up our house. possibly make supper, though i am completely out of ideas. i mean there's only so much you can make with next to nothing.

2010 in a nut shell

i haven't been able to get on here in a very long time... 2010 was eventful but yet boring at the same time. in July i gained full time status of the love of my life, miss rae. in march we moved in with Lindsy in a small house in Princeton. i am still working in the optical department. i found a new day care lady, who evalie really enjoys seeing. she continues to spend Monday with my mom, my mom loves her gramma time. it hasn't been easy but some how i manage to hold everything together, i am so lucky to have the support of my family and friends. i haven't heard from evalie's dad in over a month now, i still don't get how he can go weeks without seeing her. the very thought of that breaks my heart. evalie has now learned a wide variety of words, her favorite of the moment is no. "would you like some juice?" "NO" "can i have a kiss?" "NO" "are you being crabby?" "NO" i can't help but smile. she's been very busy, getting into everything, having dance parties in the kitchen, and learning 'what's this' to whatever it is she's pointing at. it amazes me still how smart she is, and i am looking forward to her two year appointment in march-i know hard to believe she will be two!

Evalie and I at christmas time

I have a lot of plans for 2011, i just have to figure out what i need to do to get them accomplished. lindsy and mike got engaged over christmas, which means i need to find a new place to live. the thought of living on my own terrifies me, i have yet to have my own place. with this only 9 months away i need to figure out where i want to be and what job i need to find to afford living by myself. my other goal is to get things finalized with custody of evalie. i fear that her father will try and take her away from me again, i would fall apart and i dont want it to be like it was. having her only every other week. i would miss so much. but hopefully i won't have to worry about that. also to update this a little more often than i have been, so until next time....