been way too long!

i just realized that i haven't updated since june! well what's new in my life? I started my new job as an Optician, i really like my job. I am learning lot about eyes, who knows maybe i'll go back to school for something in the field. Evalie is 6 months already! Her newest thing is trying to walk all over. She gets frustrated because she wants to run every where but knows she can't yet. She'll walk all around the rooms, well holding on to our fingers:) she isn't real crawling yet she army crawls her way around the room. other than that she amuses herself by playing with her many toys her favorite being the activity table ellen gave her, it has lovely music that i could listen to all day-ha!

Just a few pics Evalie enjoys helping with laundry... hopefully some day i will trian her to do all the laundry-haha. not a lot of hair on her head but enough to put the bows i got in it, someday it'll grow in until then i'll just clump the few hairs together to form a bow.

Photographs and Memories

My baby girl at 4 months <3>


Evalie playin' with her feet, it amazes me what amazes her.


Well i think my baby is teething she chews on everything and is a little irritable lately but i still love her :)

Been a while

Well its June 15. I think the reason i haven't updated in a while is because Shanno hasn't been buggin me to see pictures of Evalie. Shanno and Rodrigo are home for those of you who didn't know. Our house was full, I still have to organize all the stuff that was shoved in my room...oops yay procrastination, but now they are staying at Sarah and Mikes. I have been working quite a bit, well it seems like it. Evalie is doing good still growing fast! Today she held her bottle all by herself! I know it was a small accomplishment but i am still proud:) she has been talking a lot more i think she finally realized that she could make the noises intentionally, before it was like she was trying soo hard just to say what was on her mind but nothing came out. Her naps are becoming fewer and she tries so hard to stay up-she doesn't want to miss anything! She has this odd obsession with staring at ceiling fans and dad's bright work shirt. Evalie is enjoying her time with auntie shanno and uncle ro. They have been watchin her when i am at work. One of my coworkers is going on vacation next week and that's when i was suppose to start my new position but instead of doing that i am stuck in my ugly green polo training for something i am only going to do once... woo hoo. but just smile and thank god i still have a job! Hmm... What else? I don't think i have anything else to say today. The above photo she's sitting in her chair just staring and trying to grab the turtle. Shanno decided to give her a piggy back ride she looks absolutely terrified. The last one was when shan was watching her at Sarah and Mikes Evalie just looked so happy!

Yay!

Evalie talkin' away

Today was my last day in the lease of our apartment. I am so glad that its finally over. A year wasted that's how I feel, though I knew that moving in together would either make us or break us. It broke us and I am still going to have to deal with that for many years. *sigh* oh well on the up side Evalie is growing beautifully, I saw Nina's newest baby Lily, she's such a lil peanut tiny compared to my chunker. Evalie had a doctor's appointment on Tuesday, she now weighs 11 pounds 6 ounces, and is just about 24 inches long. We had to give her shots:( Though it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, I don't like needles and shots, she still cried but that was mostly my fault. It was time for her afternoon nap when we went and since I have to schedule those things months in advance I didn't know it. Her next appointment she gets some more shots, but now I know what to expect. Hmm... what else is new? Shanno comes home on Tuesday!!! I am excited that she is coming but not so excited to go through Evalie's things and move them into my room so her and Ro have a place to sleep. Hopefully Zoe remembers them and Rodrigo doesn't get mad because I think Zo doesn't remember a lot of Spanish.


Above are some pictures of her being two months old. The one of her in the car seat shows how much she has grown, when we brought her home from the hospital she was so tiny in her car seat now she's big! The outfit she has on in the car seat used to be pants and now they have turned into capris. Hopefully she'll be tall:)

Anger

i have more pictures and some videos. I put her in her bouncer she is still too small... but i used the thing that karen gave me for easter and it was just enough of a boost to keep her upright-I have to say that the photo on the left of her in the bouncer she looks just like her mommy. the photo on the right she pooped herself out from bouncing so much:) I had another one but it didn't get sent right, but her head was plopped forward- she was so tired she couldn't even hold it up! The top picture is from yesterday night when we were just getting ready for bed. we were playing peek-a-boo, she's slowly getting it, though sometimes she looks at me confused a blank stare, at those moments i am pretty sure she is thinkin' her mom is crazy!


this is her in her bouncy thing

this was tonight when she was on the changing table i was trying to get her to smile a lot, sometimes she doesn't want to... well i suppose its getting late i will update more later.

Random

Some pictures and videos from my phone. The one of Evalie and I was taken when she was almost three weeks old. The one with her blue eyes just staring all innocent was last week. She's starting to get a little bit of a personality her expressions change everyday and she's talking a lot more. She's growing so fast! Her newborn clothes are getting a lil tight and too short-hopefully this means she'll be tall. Well it won't take much to pass me up:)

Evalie makin' some faces

This was taken a long time ago when Zoe first came here. She's made a friend in Bailey. Its still funny when you see this tiny dog running after Bailey. They have fun.

Sunny Days

As I am updating today Miss Evalie is fast asleep for her morning nap. She's finally getting into a routine with her sleeping and spending a lot more time awake and taking in everything around her. She's wiggling and smiling a lot more I can't believe how much she has grown in these past weeks. Next week I go back to work, I am looking forward to catching up on the Shopko gossip but a little sad that I am going to leave her for 8 hours a day... but I think I will adjust. I am applying to work in the optical part of Shopko it would be a good change and more of a career job. I am still hoping to go back to school but first I want to get Evalie and I settled out on our own. Evalie is 6 weeks old already! It's amazing she seems to grow extremely fast, her newborn clothes are starting to get tight and a little short. I had some fun with some dandalions the other day and made some cute pictures for mother's day. I suppose I have some things to get done before she wakes up, so I'll update some more later.

New Place

I have an appointment today to go see some town houses in Holdingford, I am hoping everything will go right and i get them. As much as i love my parents, i am really really excited to move out and have a place all to myself. And to decorate:) Anywho i'll update later, i also have some new pictures and some from easter...oops that i need to get up here yet.

Pictures from Easter

What a pretty day!

Uncle Bob and Kade Gramma

Aunt Karen and Carl with the potato gun

Mom bringin out the kites

Aunt Karen brings all these toys

flying kites

Zoe on the roof and Brian's kite stuck in the tree

Easter

Happy Easter!

Easter was a lot of fun this year, we had everyone come over to mom and dad's. Tiffany and Brian, Addy and Kade came from South Dakota, Aunt Karen came from Montana, Janine and Bob down from Duluth, it was just nice to have everyone together. The only one missing was Shanno but she'll be with us soon:)
This was before the easter bunny, a quick nap so she wouldn't be cranky, she screamed anyway. I think the easter bunny was a little nervous but he just bounced her and she was happy again.

Karen, Addy, Tiffany, and Evalie

An Update

Well Evalie is now a month old. Its crazy how much she has changed in the past weeks. I am amazed at how strong she is and how she is so alert. I wonder what she sees and what she dreams about. I still aww at her when she is sleeping that i don't think will ever change. I guess there are moments when i am about to go crazy its been pretty hard trying to raise her. I still feel alone even though everyone is here to help me. I have the support of my mother and father but even then i feel like this isn't the way it should be. In the ideal world i would be married and have someone to look after both of us. he's missing out on a lot though i am sure he doesn't realize it. i wonder if he thinks of us in the middle of the night when i am up with her-alone, when i feed her-alone, when we rock and she falls asleep with that cute little snore-alone. I feel that some day he will look back and know that he has missed the key moments of her life... her first smile or first funny noise, the sweet sound of her cry. the way she stares with those beautiful blue eyes wondering about the world and what it has in store for her. but i have faith that everything happens for a reason, there was a reason she was sent to me, maybe to make me grow up and think about caring for someone else or putting their needs in front of my own. Hopefully she will grow up to be a strong lil lady, and knows that her mom loves her. i think the hardest part has been my situation. i hope to soon be on my own and hope that i can make it. I am in search of an apartment but that isn't going as great as i want it to be. its hard to live with my parents i forget that i have to check in with them even though i am 21 years old and knows how to take care of myself, no one really understands what i am going through. I have a baby that needs to know who her father is and i am willing to let him see her, i don't think it would be fair to her to never know who her dad was. i just wish that it didn't have to be this way. the whole thing has been hard on me it sometimes doesn't matter what i do its going to upset someone, whether its my mom, adam, myself. i just get caught between everyones opinions on how i should go about this at the end of the day i am tired and alone.

Pictures

Visiting with Aunt Janine, Uncle Bob, and Aunt Amy

Rob and Amy Megan, Krista, Matthew, and Evalie

We had to time how long each girl got to hold her. Uncle Steve and Evalie

Matthew Mom, Andy, Isaac, Aunt Colleen, Emma, and Evalie

First great grandchild

Four generations

Kayla and Evalie Uncle Jeff

Jeff making her very upset just sittin suckin on my finger:)

New uncle Ryan Uncle Gary

Takin' a nap

First bath:)

Smiles in her sleep

sittin' in our bouncer maybe should put it away until she's a little bit bigger. Going for a walk gotta have the shades:)